Oh, I forgot...

I forgot that I created this blog....I guess with so many other things going on in my life. But I have to admit that things have been good! S is on the ball with everything. He has been working so much, but I think that is about to change (which will be good).

Today at lunch a few ladies were talking about having a degree and how their husbands are at a different level. I understand completely. I've talked to S about me having a degree and soon to have another...does it bother him. He said no, but something tells me different. The other night he stated that he wants to go to school. I had mixed feelings, but more happy than anything. I just really want him to be happy with whatever he decides in life.

I was ready an article about a man who wife left him. She had a master's degree and he did not have a degree at all. They just kind of grew apart. I hope that doesn't happen to us.

But on another note, I need to send a few post from my other blog to this one because someone in the office told someone else about my blog and I just don't need any trouble. You know...everyone once in a while I may complain about someone at work....what if they are reading the blog and is reading about themselves....wwwwwoooooowwwwwwwww!

Mom didn't tell it all....

I noticed that lately I've been calling my mother and saying "There are some thing you did not tell me about kids and marriage." She just laughs, but she knows I am telling the truth. Marriage is hard work everyday. My grandparents just celebrated their 59th Wedding Anniversary and I asked my grandmother how does she do it. I can only assume that it is easier now; no kids in the house and I believe it helps that they know each other now (at least they should).

Sometimes I just don't know if I am coming or going. There have been so many things that have happened in our marriage (good and bad). In the beginning our marriage was great. All of our friends and family would come to us for advice because everyone could see that our marriage was great.

We have now pasted the 5th year mark. Many people say if you can make it to the 5th year, you can make it last.

Right now, I just can't trust him. No matter what I do, I can't get past it. I hate myself for feeling this way and wish that we could go back to the way things were. I hate when I think he is lying, because nine times out of ten, he is.